Unrhythmic feelings for a friend.

When I needed friends, I could not find one.
When I needed an ear, seems like all were clogged.
When I needed a shoulder, all were occupied.
When I needed an advice, all were dissappeared.
And I became weaker than I've ever been.
And I cried my heart out into a pillow.
And I wrote my whine out to a paper.
And I look around,still, I found none.
It was hard, it was hurting.
It was sad, it was lonely.
I was humiliated. It was embarassing
What hurts most, I get all the credit for not being strong enough.
And I learned.
And I knew.
And I realised.
I'm on my own.
And so, I became, a loner,
I swallowed it all.
A broke up with a boyfriend, was bad.
Breaking up with friends was even worst.
The past is done. I've been betrayed.
And so I learned never to depend.
I am pretty much have me, and only.
Call me emotional,
Call me absurd,
You know nothing at all,
For I will never give you a call.
We'll know, who's our true friend when we're at the bottom.
We'll know who'll be with us,
and who would feel empathy,
or who'd help to add some more spice to the wound.
Things been done,
words been said.
I was a joke,
Laugh all you want.
Thank you for the lesson.
Said I passed the test.
What a respond from a so called 'friend'.
Thank you, I made it through once, I can make it on my own.