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Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Smile because your smile matter to those around you.

YOU. ingat tak dulu. dulu, masa you tengah susah hati dan selalu moody. masa you rasa takde sapa paham you. *err...selalu je kan you rasa takde orang faham you. yelah.masa tu..i pernah bagi you satu buku kan? buku smiley. ingat tak? buku kaler itam, ada one big smiley on the front and three little smileys at the back. ah..buku tu lahh.. that book which i bought when i was passing by a very old bookstore and i saw it, it was actually dusty...but kat cover dia ada tulis. "smile because your smile matter to those around you." and at that time, your smile is actually what matter most to me. and so I bought the book because I need to tell you without telling you that your happiness is important to me. Even if I'm not the who'd be the reason for your happiness.

My intention was, for you to have something which you will have by yourside just when you think talking to the people around you is useless because none of us would understand you. I said, "whenever you pissed of, mad or sad, just write it all here. you can let it all out here. make it sort of a letter to someone you would never meet, but understand you the most. you can write everything here. even if it is about me.

Ingat tak you buku tu?? I tau you ingat. And I remember reading the very first note in the book. It was about how you appreciate this book very much. and you would write more. and one of the bitterest moment to you was when i smoke some "shisha" with our friends. yes..that book. I noticed you still have that book. and i also found out that you had stopped writing. My wish is that, you stopped writing because you are all better than then..

*my attempt to share some bittersweet memories with you. didn't work did it?
but I'm glad I had tried it.S

Umum Salahnya

Buruk perkataannya, kau kisahkan.
Buruk perangainya, kau ceritakan.
Mengaruk hamunnya, kau sebarkan.
Buruk lakunya, kau umumkan.

Tangisnya dia, saat kau kelaparan, tak kau kisahkan.
Sedihnya dia, saat kau keletihan, tak kau ceritakan.
Runtun hatinya, saat kau kesusahan, tak pernah kau umumkan.
Sabarnya dia, saat kau curang, tak pernah kau dedahkan.

Waktu kau berbohong, dan dia redha.
Tak pernah kah kau, rasa kasihan.
Saat kau sombong, dan dia kesusahan, takkah kau rasa satu kesalahan.
Saat dia perlu pertolongan, terus ditinggalkan, tak perlukah kau, beri penjelasan?

Dia marah. Dia menjerit.
Dia mengamuk. Dia mengaruk.

Dia sayang. Dia cinta.
Dia sakit. Dia perit.
Dia sabar. Dia tabah.

Biar hatinya, matikan semua rasa.
Mengusap dada, terus beristghfar.
Semoga sabar, masih berbaki.
Insya-Allah kemaafan tiba satu masa nanti.

In The Midst of The Cold

filled with tears.
haunt with fear.
dropping hopes.
leaving dreams.

too tired to think.
too sad to wish.
to all in hands.
i wish to free.

sadness strokes
in the midst of the cold.
helpless to run
when i can't stand.

Kawan-Kawan Saya

Di awalnya, saya sendiri saya.
Saya mula kenal dia.
Orang pertama saya berkata.
Orang pertama saya menyapa.
Yang kurang lebih sama macam saya.
Kita putih, tapi kita putih yang tak sama.
Kita hitam, tapi hitam kita pon tak sama.
Kita confuse, tapi kita tetap sama-sama terus.
Saya kenal pula dengan dia, dia, dan dia.
Dia semua jadi kakak adik saya.
Permulaan saya.
Kenal dengan mereka,
lidah saya mula rasa benda baru.
Lidah saya mula rasa benda berbeza.
Perkataan saya mula bertambah.
Pengetahuan saya mula bercambah.
Pandangan saya juga berubah.
Terima kasih ika, ida, dan deeha.
KPM jugak jadi pemangkin.
Saya mula kenal kawan-kawan yang lain.
Semua sebab nak tanya;
"eh, you da cek duit KPM?"
Semua sebab KPM.
Saya kenal Nerd, Konoi, Ali dengan Nudin.
Lepas tu, saya mula duduk library.
Bukan sebab rajin,
Sebab saya bosan duduk sendiri dalam bilik yang dingin.
Konon-konon baca buku,nak duduk sampai malam.
Kite menyambil;
makan, baca,minum,baca,gossip, baca,cuci mata, baca.
Kat situ juga kita jumpa Pink Panther.
Gf Nudin yang Nudin pon tak tau dia tu gf Nudin.
Pink Panther pon tak tau dia tu gf Nudin.
Saya kenal pulak dengan Cikema, Arep.
Saya belajar perkataan SEBEK.
Semua situasi saya nak guna kan sebek.
Kenapa sebek.
Cikema tinggalkan saya sebek masa rumate dia tgh bergadoh.
Sebek saya situ.
Lepas tu saya mula kenal ramai budak kelas.
Kalau sebelum tu, saya tak kenal.
Sungguh saya lupe.
Maafkan saya ye.
Sungguh orang kata, zaman belajar zaman paling bahagia.
Tak dapat nak kata apa, saya pon setuju juga.
Semua orang yang ada, takkan saya lupa.
Saya sayang semua.
Walaupun takde nama sebut sini sana,
Awak-awak kene tahu, saya ingat awak semua.

Sesuatu Yang di Kutip dari Tulisan Lama (5) "Now That You Are Here"

Don't come to say you are sorry...because I am for you...
Don't ask me how to live because now i know better..
I thought perfect moment is a long journey---proven it's not..
Don't come to reminisce, because I stop doing it long time ago....
Things are not gonna be the same..
Thought I'm not gonna be sober..
Now I'm much better....
Can't believe I could view from different angle....
Won't lie about how happy I am...
Won't need that..
COS I AM.....

Monday, November 7, 2011

Sesuatu Yang di Kutip Dari Tulisan Lama (4) "FRAIZZ

at times u make me cry...
it happens when u lie.. 
i just know it...
still. u want to deny...
the more i know...
the more u ignore...
yes i know...
not all i know..
but it's enough you know?
i'm happy when u smile...
content when i became the reason of that smile..
we never bother about others...
at least i do because u, me is just enough..
i tried to be a new version of mumy..
and i know i lost the privilege of being me..
that's ok that's alright..
in a relationship we have to compromise.
things got out of hands..
i don't want it to end..
i know for sure..
this feeling i have is not over...
can't see you as what u used to be...
i just can't stand it...
when she's standing in between...
don't mind about the other lady..
they are beautiful...
i know that..
but they are beauty with brain...
this one..
i can't tolerate...
just can't accept it..
just don't get it...
so, i thought...
why not..
give her a shot...
maybe she worth a lot..
we are not kids anymore..
we are not newbies..
we are not strangers..
we know more than anyone know...
we feel more than anyone would feel..
we faced at least to the extent we had put our heart could stand...
why want to fight when it can be good?
why want to curse when we can be cool?
i love it. 
to be asking about u.
to be learning about u.
to know new thing, day to day about u. 
i like it.
to ask silly little Q...
to have to chose your shoe..
to talk more and more, it's ok if it's only about u..
remember mcd?
remember the FRAIZ?
remember how i said it?
remember how ur eyes blink with stars in it?
'u look nice, marry me'...
that just came out; out of the blue..
but i just love it...
the sound of it..the taste of it...
mcd FRAIZ...
i would call u that..

if u like that...
cos i like that....
fraiz.... 
i just love it...
i just can't get enough of it..
i just can't get rid of it...
how hard, how soft, how salty it is..
i just love it..
and faiz....
i just love u.

Sesuatu Yang di Kutip Dari Tulisan Lama (3) "You and Me"

It was nothing new.
You and me.
That's how it will always be.

On the bench.
There we will be.
We were happy.
You and me.

It was rainy.
I'm happy.
That u are here.
Here with me.

Then came she.
Why it has to be?
Wasn't it supposed to be?
Just you and me?

I can't see.
Why on earth she wanted me
to leave and set you free.
Is this how u wanted it to be?

I am willingly.
If u ask me.
because I don't want to be
A burden to anybody.

On that day
I decided to choose my own way
there's nothing more to say,